I want the best for you..

It is true, I do want the best for you. And you know who you are if you are reading this. But I have ran out of energy, time, patience and strength. I have tried my best to make the future we planned real, but you could never cope with change, how is a relationship going to withstand all the obstacles if you couldnt let me move for uni and try and make a career path. You will never open up and see the real me, becuase you started to forget me. You started only seeing the things you thought were there. Things became complicated. Things became hurtful. spiteful and it destroyed me. And yourself whilst doing so. I waited for you again. I guess i still am if im honest, but i cant keep waiting and hurting anymore. I have to move on i have to pick up the pieces and i have to give myself strength and another chance to happiness. And im trying to. So i want you to behappy for me and i want you to be happy too. So much. However much you dont believe me and think im a fake. I have always loved you, i have always treasured you and i always will. The future is a scary thing, but its something im wading myself through. To build myself up again, my confidence and strengh up again, and my future. Im trying thats all i can say. You are right. London is my life now. It is my home. But it wont be my future. It was a passage in time to educate myself and find out who i am. Once im finished uni il be gone, Working and building my life even more. You couldnt accept that. I hope uni goes well for you, i hope you find happiness, but never doubt for one minute that i didnt try, or didnt love you, or want my future with you, i did and everyone knew it, but things went wrong and turned upside down on us, and thats the point in time to change and to work towards something new. I do thankyou, for what you have done for me in the past, and the support and friendship you gave me, it will neve be forgotten. And nor will you, you will always have a place in my heart.