So, the VMA's eh ??

Lots to talk about, lots to see, lots to .. take in. One being the sexy one and only Beyonce who has confirmed all speculations over her being pregnant. She made a stunning appearance on the red carpet in Los Angeles, announing to photographers - " I have a little suprise for you." - mm. Juicy. After perfoming her wonderful single 'Love top', ( amazingly I might add...) She said, quote - " I want you all to feel the love that's growing inside of me". Then came a fabuolous follow up of Beyonce unbuttoning her jacket to reveal the bump! It is said that the other half, Jay Z could be heard cheering from the sidelines as the audience clapped and cheered for the happy couple. Nawwwww.
Something else lovely to see was the  B-e-a-u-tifullll Russel Brand leading tribute alongside Jessie J for Amy Whinehouse. A piece of footage was unveiled to the viewers displaying Amy's final performance dueting with Tom Bennett singing 'Body and Soul'. At the end of the sentimental and moving ceremony, Bruno mars lit up the stage by singing Valerie. Amy would be very proud. I hope she has finally found a happier place where her troubles can FINALLY all be left behind and she is resting in peace. God bless her soul.
Okay. So, lets recapa few of the main awards announced.
Video of the year - Went to THE Katy Perry for 'Firework'.
Best Male Video - An award that Justin Beiber recieved for 'U smile'.
And Best Female Video - went to Lady Gaga with 'Born this way'.
All well deserved, don't you think?

BUT, this does lead onto my following thoughts and comments about Lady Gaga. Or should I say.. 'Joe Calderone'?? . . . Gaga has denied all accusations of being a hermaphrodite ever since she clambered out a swimming pool, dazzling us all with glitter and a lightning bolt on her face in her video 'Poker face'. Even though she doesn't seem it, she is CLEARLY very much iinto her masculine side. During the awards and evrey other day so it seems! She, (or he) erupted the stage as Joe and explained how Gaga was 'crazy' and how the 'spotlight follows her home, I want to get in it.' Also, something about how she wears heels in the shower?? Says it all really doesn't it?. It has also been noted that they both claim Italian heritage and Joe considers himself to be a 'simple guy from Sicily who works as a mechanic.' ... Righttttt. ? . He first came about after he appeared on the front cover of Japanese Vogue, where he claimed noone has ever taken his picture before? yet, he is spread all over vogue.. During this, people started to notice the resemblance between him and Gaga immediately. Joe has also mentioned how he has 'alledgedly' met Gaga through a Nick Knight shoot. He commented - " She is F**kin beautiful! and funny and very interesting! I was a little nervous for Nick to start shooting" and Gaga 'apparently' replied to that with " Don't be baby, 'You were born this way'. He was then said to have told people how he took Gaga out after, and everything from then onwards was private. With a wink. HUH?.Yeah, something has seriously been misplaced in her head. After all of this, you would think that was enough shock factor wouldn't you? clearly not. Gaga, attempted to recreate history at the VMA's. Joe presented Britney with the Michael Jackson Vanguard award - ( wow. what an honour! well done britney michael would be proud!) - by teasing the audience and causing intensity whilst going in for a snog with the singer, reminising the famous Britney and Madonna kiss back at the MTV awards in 2003, but on THIS occasion, the singer pulled away announcing " I've done that already, I'm a good ol' fashioned girl". Hmmm. Whatever you say darl

xoxo

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Why can't you just be happy for me? whatever that happiness may be  ..

Friday 19th August..

Its 4:30 pm. And the journey home to Northamptonshire is underway. Halfway actually. Amongst a mouthful of sweets and a quick drink. Back on the road we go. Only an hour and thirty mins to go. Hopefully. I hate the journey home.. Maybe this is a good time to take a snooze..?.. Going home feels weird. Home number one that is. Home number two - ( london) is still waiting for me to make my appearance thursday. I won't lie, I do miss my bed and earning money, but I am totaly enjoying being with my family right now.

When you listen, you realise things..

Tonight, my sister came and confided in me. Well, I say confided, I dragged it out of here. To be brutally honest. She's going on 15 and her emotions are EVERYWHERE. She started crying and we spoke for a while. . She told me how she has realised how much family mean. How much you should appreciate family and enjoy the time you have with them . Each and every day. Make every minute count. She also mentioned how she doesn't want to grow up. Who does?? . . Or wants to face the time ( when it comes) when something ever happens to one of us. Life without them, and it's something we all think about. At somepoint. . I dread to think how I would cope. Or any of us. And I do my best to not think about it. So I always let each one of them know I love them and miss them here in London every day. No matter what. I also makesure I see them whenever I can. Which never seems to be enough ... Without them. Any of them. I am nothing.

Thursday 18th August..

Well, it's nearly the end of my holiday, my last full day here. And i'm spending it sat here on the beach. My sister and brother are out in the sea, my parent's are off walking the dogs down at the water edge and I'm sat here writing. As per. In between reading my book. It's a beautiful day here in Sandsend. Beautiful. It is so lovely and quiet. If I had been able to find a decent art shop I would be painting. I do miss it. I think I'll make more time for it when I goback to London. Which is very soon. . . Being here has given me lots of time to think. About everything really. It also has given me time to worry about things too. One main worry being money. But whilst here I'm here I'm going to put it to the back of my mind and enjoy my time here. With my family. One day, hopefully, money won't ever be a problem... Right. I think it's about time I put my pen down and went for a paddle. Yepm it most definately is.. Have a good day guys... I am :)

xoxo

The Time has come..

The time has come for the annual family holiday. The only thing being different this year being that I currently live, work and study in the capital. That place being London.
I've left myself four days before leaving to go home to sort laundry, sort my apartment out, my  suitcase. Basically my whole entire life. But when the time comes I know it'l be worth it. To be honest, it couldn't come round quick enough. Especially when you have become emotionally drained, work drained and can't stand the same scenes day in day out. That is why the beaches in yorkshire are waiting for me. Not long till I can escape the reality of the world and take up a perch on the beach somewhere and bury myself in a book. Pure.Bliss.. There is nothing more relaxing than that. Fresh sea air smell that lingers in the air , the sound of the sea. Peace. It can be  rare to capture time to escape...

Paige Beacham - You're song cover

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lV1dRW3jsOQ

Hey guys if you could all check my sister's recent music vid on youtube please and let us know what you think of it !

<3 xoxo

Juicy Couture all the way baby ..

I bought some Juicy Couture pjas and sunglasses yesterday.  I thought a treat was fully deserved! Beautiful they are. Yet a lot of money for two items! The glasses are a pretty, silvery white, big eyed framed pair with a cut out heart on the one arm with a dangling heart charm. Very nice. I couldn't resist. They glisten in the sunglight and protect my eyes too. Double whammy !
I saw alot of pretty ones whilst walking through Bicester shopping village in oxford, I also saw lots of beautiful things inviting me into their pretty wooden lodges. Filled with designer wear. Heaven. Dolce and Gabbana, Dior, Ralph Lauren, Vivienne Westwood, lots of little pleasures in their own little hideaways. I found it hard to NOT go into every shop if im honest. Especially Mulberry and Gucci! People were parading around with many bags bursting to the brim of designer luxuries. I felt a bit intimidated, but it was lovely to see this little village filled with people showing off the happiness. <3

When I think about my future..

I think about my future and I think about what I want in life. And I know I want to be successful, and I want a family. To be happy. To be a mother and to be able to create a happy life for them. I want a nice house near the beach with my own stables looking after a horse for myself, and one each for my children. I also know I want to be married. And feel more deeply in love with that someone. That someone who texts me and it makes me smile. Says my name and my heart skips a beat. That butterfly effect I get everytime he touches me. That undying love for him like he feels for me. That is a love that will last forever and beyond.

What happened to good ol' fashioned books?

The amazon kindle. Stores up to 3,500 books, has two months battery life and also has Wifi. You can buy the books online, and they will be delivered for your reading within 60 seconds. Each kindle costs roughly £111. Just another pointless gadget. What happened to just grabbing a book off the shelf. I see the kindle flashed around in my face everyday on the tube. All from people who look like they have too much money to throw away. I love reading, and nothing will beat just going into a bookstore, buying a book and turning the pages with excitement. There's something about actually  flicking the pages with your fingertips rather than reading it on the screen and pushing a button to get to the next page. I like the idea of the Ipad. It does everything. It looks cool. It's like a more modern version of a laptop. Where the kindle is replacing a book, which is something that doesn't need replacing.  I use the internet a lot. Clearly. But if my work was to be published in a magazine, I'd want to physically see it. I'd want to turn each page and feel it. Imagine reading Harry Potter on the Kindle. It wouldn't be nowhere near the same. Such an amazing author and you want to feel the book. And i dont think you can by reading it off a screen.. I understand it helps the environment. It saves trees, but there is something so magical about books. I like to feel that i am walking in to their world after lifting each page corner. It makes me wonder how popular the kindle is, because i dont think books can ever be replaced. They will never go out of fashion..